old & new year in the pavilion

what a bad end year. my dad go into the hospital again because of the complication oh his disease. it's impossible if I spend my old & new year celebration far from my family with this condition. when I knew about my dad's health, I went to home. He entered the hospital yesterday (30/12). then moved to pavilion to get more privacy and comfort. I'm waiting him here. Last year (December 31st 2009), my dad and I spent the old & new year with saw the fireworks together. Now, my friends are digital TV and a lot of design book. My mother also accompany my dad. So, tonight I'll pass the old year 2010 & new year 2011 in the pavilion. Get well soon, daddy.

fun with the animals

it's time to improve my photography skills. last tuesday (28/12), I ask my friend Bas to accompany me explore about photography. finally, we went to animal market. I have a lot of digital gadget, but I love to took a photograph with the manual camera. I was using nikon F60 in this event and canon ixus (digital) too.

look at the hamster, I interested with the expression. I forgot to set the speed of ixus, so the photograph looks a bit of blur. I will not buy the DSLR before finish explore the manual. manual still the best than the digital.

christmas, christmas, christmas

every year, my major in my campus always make a christmas celebration. this year, I wasn't coming to the christmas celebration on December 17th. actually, I always came to the event, 3 years before I came to the event, but not for this year. a lot of deadline and appointments. my plan's to spent my holiday with my (ex)girlfriend is fall. I'm not regretted with the condition, but I regretted why the condition became like this. yeah right, it's over, but I hope to be in relationship with her again. till now, I still see her face everywhere, on my mind, on my dream, everywhere. MAD!!! that's me, freak. I don't know who's my destiny for my future. just let it flow.

well, I spent my christmas celebration with my friends in the church in a day after christmas day. I act as a documentator (photographer and filmer). it's very fun. a lot of programs like dramas, choir, bands. everybody jazz up the event till the end. althought it was rainy, young peoples, oldies and the teens flocked up there. very nice atmosphere.

I got a christmas gift on December 24th, a day before the christmas day. yeah, that's the gift. sport shoes, nike T-Lite VIII. I got nike shoes whereas I'm dreaming to get an AND1 shoes hohoho. it doesn't really matter. the shoes came with orange box. I like the (simple) box, inspiring...

in the end...merry christmas!!!

fishin on the bog

mad of fishing. my friends in my trip community mad with fishing activities. we're dreaming we get big fishes like fisherman on television. our plan next year's go to karimun island to hunt and get strikes big fishes in there, but we must upgrade our fishing pole because we'll not fishing in the pool, but in the sea. beside that, we must save our money to prepare the trip, because we must rent a yacht to go in the middle of the sea. impossible if we're fishing in the ashore. save the plan for next year, this end month, before we spend our long (christmas and new year) holiday, we made a trip together on the bog. yeah, we were fishing there.

a day before went to the bog, my friends and I bought a fishing pole in the fish shop. various brand and quality made me confused, because we didn't know about the brands and prices of fishing pole. the owners of the shop are helpful, they helped me to choose the best fishing pole that suited with me. my friends bought a fishing pole for fishes that the weight's about 2-5 kilograms. what we bought? we bought a rail, fishing rod, fishing hook, and its accessories.

the shop list are completely bought, then we went to the Anggi's warehouse to stringing a fishing pole. it's so difficult for me. because we never did it before, we're ready to take serious risks if the tools are broken off. we were googling to get the information about how to stringing a fishing pole, finally we did it, the fishing pole is matched and ready to rock the bog on the morrow (24/12). we took a long time for it, we bought the fishing pole at 3 p.m and fixed at 7 p.m

the next day, in the morning, about 7 a.m, we flock together in Bas house, had a breakfast together and about 7.30 a.m we were going to the bog in Klaten. we arrived in the location at 9 a.m. 5 peoples with 5 motorcycles. Alex, Anggi, Theo, Bas, and me. the atmosphere on that day is very hot, no cloudy and rainy, sunny.

just Alex, Anggi, and me who's fishing. Bas and Theo just brought their camera, they wanna took our activities in that day. we (Alex, Anggi and me) looks like artists that's haunted by paparazzi. the result's very disappointed. we just got small fishes and sometime our fish hooks are broken off because the big fishes. forget about that, the closing ceremonial is had a lunch together. we ordered a lot of seafood menu and ate them together. road to karimun guys!!!

close the case in the japanese food house

I thought I felt free after the final presentation of my practical work in the early month. my bad, i forgot about the report and documentation. 3 days without slept, I was doing the report and collected the files for complete documentation. a lot of memorable things and moments happen. without GOD, I can't finished it all in the limited time. on the rainy atmosphere, I must went around this city (Jogja) to get a place to copy and bind my report. Not just that, I'm so confused when I must call my lecturers to get their signature. OMG!!! finally, in the December 16th, my report and documentation with the authentication are submitted. till now, I'm not believe that I did all my deadlines of my practical work although my time is limited with high on stress condition.

my affair about practical work is totally finished in this day (16/12). just in time after submitted all about it, my friends (Anggi, Thomas, Alex) jazz up the rain and went to Japanese Food House to lick the new taste of tenpayaki and ramen. saw the chef made a wonderful and yummy foods in front of me with high technique made me fresh, calm down and forgot about the things before it. what a nice day with homies. I didn't know and I never ate in this place before. A day after this, I know that the japanese food house is Tompi's restaurant. Tompi is a jazz singer. nice dude!!

bbe shocking day

in the middle of this month (17/12), my friend Bambang got surprise from me and tee (my friend nadhia didn't join because of prepared the Christmas party). I knew him since he was in the same student community with me. boy from jogja with glasses and wavy hair. on the night before D-day, tee texted me, she said that December 17th is Bambang's birthday and she asked me to give him a surprise. in the same time, nadhia did the same as tee did to me, she asked to me to buy a candle for birthday cake. I thought, the surprise is birthday cake. So, I didn't prepare something special before like I did when my friends celebrate their birthday.

On the D day, in the morning, tee texted me and asked me to meet her in campus (in that day, Bambang worked as a volunteer in campus). about 9 a.m we met in the campus. I just saw tee, and she just brought a cone ice cream in her right hand and candles in the left hand. hohoho, she bought it suddenly. the surprise was ready, but we still waited nadhia. because of long time we waited and she didn't come, we stolen up on Bambang workplace with an ice cream with red candle on the top. gotcha!!! successful!!! he shocked when we came to his workplace with that. tee and I sang a birthday song, then Bambang made a wish and blew the fire of candle. finally, we ate the ice cream together while recorded the moment. happy birthday Bambang, now you're 21 years old. do your final exam, road to graduate and get busy with your job in the future.

that's an artwork for Bambang. regards!!!

a day off as fisherman

August till December is my time in my 7th semester. in this 7th semester, my lesson about practical work made me busy, confused, and high on stress. developed software everyday, revision, developed again, analized and tested..... not just a developer, but also work as a designer, tester, analyzer. the final step of my lesson is final presentation at December 8th. I prepared it all carefully, and to get the best final presentation. It's done and on that day I felt free. my brain started to calm down. on that night, I invited my friends to joined a trip on the morrow.

I invited my friends suddenly because I didn't know what I must did on the morrow after the final presentation. I just need to made my brain free. on the next day, we flocked in my friend's house. my friends who joined this trip is Jo, Alex, Thomas, Yosi, Anggi, Inne. What a trip? the trip is GO FISHING!!! we had a day off as fisherman in the fishpond.

the atmosphere when we arrived is cloudy and just waited for rain. in the middle of fishing time, the rain is came to make we wet, but we still waited our fishhook eaten by the fishes. sometime we got a big fish, sometime we got (very) small fish. laugh out loud together and the trip closed with lunch together with the fishes that we got. so grateful.

charity hunt for merapi

a lot of beautiful photograph in the show of merapi charity hunt. the photo session is being held on November 28th at Tembi Culture House and the photo exhibition is held on December 3rd in the djendelo cafe near my boardinghouse. this event's organized by photography community in my campus. 30 photos and 3 best shoots are chosen. my friend's (Thomas) photograph is one of the big 30.

the event is sponsored from a lot of shops and brands beside of the community and the models. the donation from this event was for victim of merapi eruption. total donation is Rp 4.050.000. I hope the victims of merapi eruption can use the donation to make their life better because life is good and God is good too.

it's kind of missing on some level

Broke off with my girlfriend, lost my ticket(s) to Lombok Island, felt down from motorcycle, beated and bleed by new deck, not yet finish logo designs and prototype of tabloid, 4 times didn't come on a lot of programs (editorial staff meeting, charity hunt, seminars), sick of practical work, failed to buy And1 duraspring pro model 'the professor', cancel the randezvous with my homies, didn't submit the MJ2 design, lag in teach, and many more. The conclusion is...I was feeling unproductive. November is my sickest month of this year, (but)'I have one thing'...that's make me feel great till this time...

November end

November 22nd

my grandmom's died. First time, I sent that news to my friend Lo Johan. Just shocked, after that, my friends texted me just for gave me condolation. Via cellphone and facebook. They're (except Lo Johan) Tee, Alex, Bhimasta, Angel, Enny, Audrey, Menick, Liliana, Nadhia, Radita, O'shell, BB, Jah Bara, Elly + editorial staffs of Campus Newspaper, Ria, miss Fefe, Aya, My student's Family, C'Vira, Dave, Ferdi, Botha, and many more. On the next day

November 23rd

my grandmom's corpse landed in Solo. My father, mom, and me go there after heard that news. Crowd of people saw and pray for her. I'm the last people who was standing and praying in front of the graveyard. My grandmom means a lot for me, especially my histories in Jakarta.

November 24th

I thinked this bad news can made me forget her (Audrey), that was true. I was forgetting her and just sad about my grandmom, but in the evening, she called me. Just to asked about grandmom. That's made me shocked and thinked back about her. SICK!! OMG, I'm still thinking about her. My brain is small but why I'm always thinking about her. (maybe) makes me unproductive about all

Last Thursday (November 25th), I came back to Jogja. Now, still in Jogja. Daily life as teacher, student, and editorial staff. Sick!! I'm thinking about her again!! What's the impact? I'm not focus lead the meeting and teaching, out of deadline and finally I'm not submit the design (whereas it just the last step, coloring), not attending Charity Hunt for Merapi, etc

1love. Long time no hear that song. November 23rd. Last night before I'm back to Jogja, I saw the site (www.1love.org). Song of Bob Marley playing from that site, one love. I feel in the peacefull when hear that song. Since that night, I changed my photo facebook and twitter account with 1love logo (and also my cellphone wallpaper), updated my facebook and twitter status with 1love. Here's the song...

One Love, One Heart
Let's get together and feel all right
Hear the children crying (One Love)
Hear the children crying (One Heart)
Sayin' give thanks and praise to the Lord and I will feel all right
Sayin' let's get together and feel all right

Let them all pass all their dirty remarks (One Love)
There is one question I'd really like to ask (One Heart)
Is there a place for the hopeless sinner
Who has hurt all mankind just to save his own?
Believe me

One Love, One Heart
Let's get together and feel all right
As it was in the beginning (One Love)
So shall it be in the end (One Heart)
Give thanks and praise to the Lord and I will feel all right
One more thing

Let's get together to fight this Holy Armageddon (One Love)
So when the Man comes there will be no no doom (One Song)
Have pity on those whose chances grove thinner
There ain't no hiding place from the Father of Creation

Sayin' One Love, One Heart
Let's get together and feel all right
I'm pleading to mankind (One Love)
Oh Lord (One Heart)

Give thanks and praise to the Lord and I will feel all right
Let's get together and feel all right

... today's November 29th, 2010. Now's 03.53 AM. My applications for Practical Work on AndiCom IT School 100% done!!! I don't know, how it can be. Amazed!!!

J & 22

SICK!!! What's wrong with Jakarta. I always have sad ending stories every went to that city or got in touch with the peoples. Kaa, Ca, Audrey, Seaworld, Ma'am, MSD... Maybe GOD blacklist this city for me. I was born in Jember, that's J. Since I studied in Senior High School until I graduated from there, I was trying to get a scholarship in Japan, that's J. And now, I'm studying in Jogja, that's J. What about Jakarta? That's also J, but I really hate that.

Forget about J. Now's about multiple of 11, my birth day is March 11st. My girlfriends birthdays are April 22nd and March 22nd. I ever liked my classmate friend that was born at December 22nd. That's two of my life mysteries, another mysteries makes me confuse. Until now, I don't know the answers, but I'm sure that GOD and my true friend are knew the answers.

Enough, GOD

I don't know what'll happen again. November is my worst month this year. Sick with it. Start from broken off with Audrey and accident(s). I can't stop think about Audrey, she disappear suddenly. What my mistakes, GOD? This afternoon, YOU took my grandmom from me. Is she important for me? Yes, she is. Absolutely Yes!!!

My grandmom's name is Soemarsi. I came to Jakarta in the first time when I was a child because of her. I have a lot of memory with her, sad or good stories. What we talked about if we met or just communicate from cellphone? We talk about health. She has a huge body, but since he felt her body is bigger, she kept her body with healthy foods. She always asked me to keep my body with doing a diet, balancing my body. My grandmom live in Jakarta with her husband, daughter, and grandchild. She love her grandchild very much.

Our last communication is from cellphone. She sent MMS to me, her grandchild photo. She always said to me to work hard, keep healthy and stay near with GOD. She R.I.P. this afternoon (3.55 PM) because of cancer on her tounge. Grandmom, I love you so much. I'll always remember that time, go to seaworld every I go to Jakarta, fitness, food hunting, shopping. I promise, I will not disappoint you.

Sweet revenge? That was sick!

Look at patrick star...that's so funny. First time i saw that picture, just speechless. Revenge? Nope. I don't have a plan to give someone sweet revenge. Although I'm in (full of) anger. Something must be done soon. I'll plan it, not for someone, but for me...Gotcha!!!

What about that? Which one is better, loving someone but you can't have her/him or have someone but you can't love her/him? For me, both of them is worst!!!

Still with JavaFX

Same topic & people. Different place & event. Ya, I became a speaker in the second time on the same topic. Last year I did the same thing. No complex preparation for it. The committees asked me to become one of speakers on this event (UKDW nutz 3.0 - Open source day) on May. I suprised when I walked around the place that this event located. Crowd of Peoples be anxious to find out. Nervous? Just a little bit. Fighting!!! The location of the event is in my campus, but I stand not like in my campus. I felt like faced with strangers haha, maybe because I didn't know with the audiences. My major is Information System and most of audiences is from Informatic Technology.

Started from 9 AM, I became the first speaker. About 1 hour I was standing in front of the audiences. Maybe a little nervous because I'm the youngest speaker from 3 speakers in this event. All in black made me enjoy!!! Black trouser, black shoes, black blazer, white shirt. Nice!!!

It's done, I got nice souvenirs hoho. White shirt and mug. That's tux dude!!!

New Purple Think Deck

Made in US. Ya, I'm enjoying skateboarding. A lot of my stuff made in foreign. Why I'm not buying from local. In this time, I'm talking about skateboard deck. I bought new deck last week, the brand is THINK. My friend 'Jimos' ordered it for me. My decks before it are Alien Workshop and Baker. What about local deck? The material that local companies use to produce deck is came from foreign. In Indonesia, companies buy the decks or ply woods from US or Canada. I don't know, I feel satisfied with the stuff from foreign. Not because it bought from foreign, but I look it from the CRM (Customer Relationship Management) side.

Long time no skate...about 4 months, since July. Last month I bought that purple deck. Still with old truck, Venture. The wheels and bearrings are well. Maybe the wheel's going smaller. Now, I can play skateboard with GP homies. Last week, started play skate. I just got big spin, and in the next day I got nollie big spin. Exist or dead. I can't leave skate life, skate style, and ..... blablablabla. Skate can be my spirit. Skate and create.

Get well soon Jogja

I think all people in this world know about Merapi eruption. That's a fire mountain in Indonesia, more precisely, this mountain located in Jogjakarta. The big eruption start on November 5th. Ways in the city was full of ash, but now... Jogja city is more safe than before. Little eruptions and earthquakes from Merapi.

Dozens of deaths from this disaster and tens of thousands more displaced.

I'm studying in Jogja and I knew what they feel right now. They lost their treasures and families. I wont talking about the victims, that's so sick. They not just need foods, medicines, and clothes. They need better future.

Just hoping ...this disaster will be done as soon as possible. And the peoples can work and life like normally. I miss the blue sky and big beautiful clouds. Not like now, volcaninc flood, overcast and storms.

Eyeless

I knew slipknot since I studied in junior high school. When i was studying in senior high school, I was writing an article about slipknot, submitted on magazine and it printed. Slipknot is heavy metal band. Every parents in this world maybe not recommend their childs to hear Slipknots songs, Maybe because it can destruct your ears. It happen to me, I felt, my ears can hear about 70%-80% and I went to doctor three times.

In sad condition, happy condition, all conditions, I'm hearing the songs. I posted on my twitter, "Slipknot still the best for me". Low lights, slipknots videos, nice sound outputs are my friends every time I want. If you know about Slipknot, my favorite songs are Spit it out, Heretic anthem, Surfacing, and SIC. For sure, I like the songs, from old albums till the newest album. If you're 555 then I'm 666. Welcome to our neighborhood.

In search of the miraculous

I wanna complete a little about my last post. Her name is Audria Klara. I love her. I'm searching the miracle so that I can make a relationship again with her. Get married? Of course...GOD BLESS US. GOD, open their eyes so that they bless us too. Whatever will be happen, Thank you so much GOD. I can't write more. The Stories and the moments is wonderful....hmmm... So, I will save it in my small brain although we're not together. I hope it just temporary...SICK!!!

Work overtime as an editorial staff

Deadline is a familiar word for me, sick with it but I love that word and also living with that beautiful word. Without it, my life feels nothing. That's why I always have a lot of activities inside and outside campus. Deadlines about software developments, teaching, graphic designs, journalism, communities, and also enjoy skateboarding and mad time with friends. Last October, my partner Elly who's work in the editorial staff said that the deadlines is coming. Yeah, in my campus, I joined in 2 editorial staffs, 'Koran Kampus' or Campus Newspaper and SI Mix. Both are different. Koran Kampus is in the university level and SI Mix in major level.

Deadlines in Koran Kampus (KK) is more extreme than in SI Mix. In KK, we work done outside of normal working hours, overtime. We started working at 5 PM and went home at 6 AM. SICK!!! that's make me feel sleepy, because it always happen about 2-4 days.

I work as designer. Layout the articles is my main task. Look at that picture above. That's what i prepared before the war. A bag (laptop and gadgets inside), ionic drinks, foods, and of course, task list of designs.

That's my friends who's always work overtime together with me. From left, Elly, Ardiana, Rosa. We work, we sing together every midnight (if work overtime), laughed out loud together, and also had fun. Work time felt fun time. Nice editorial staffs environment.

Cobras Time

Robert 'Cobra' Silas Kabanga. A talented guy who's my senior in campus and GP-Skateboard. He came from Lombok and was studying in Jogja majoring Informatic Technology. That's why every break time when we were play skateboard, we talk about something smells technologies. Finally, last October, he's graduated from our campus (Duta Wacana Christian University). Hardworker, stylish and also a nice guy. Every people in GP-Skateboard called him Cobra. He did a lot of trick clearly. He participated in skate competition in Jogja and he got prize because of his best trick on that event. WOW!!! In GP, just Cobra and I that came from Duta Wacana.

Yeah right, after graduation party that held in my campus about two days (October 23-24, 2010), he planned to go back to his residence at Lombok. Lombok island is near from Bali island. His older brother also came to Jogja to join the celebration. I like this part. In October 25th (sunday), he text me suddenly to joined with him and others friend to go to Depok beach. Ate together for sure, we usually do that every we got a big moment that affected with our life.

Sunday morning, I cancelled all my activities that day. No clothes wash, no appointments, special for this moment. Start from 7 AM, the atmosphere is cloudy, made me pesimistic and think "it will rainy". GOSH!!! that's became true, start from flocked in Hotel until arrived on Depok beach, wet wet wet because of rainy. that was sick!!! Peoples are Cobra, his mother, his brother, Jimos & girlfriend, Melong & girlfriend, Fajar, Dede, and me. Depok beach is just a small beach. You just can play ATV, kites, and don't play water because the waves is big, maybe because it's the first time I came to this place and the atmosphere was so bad. Peoples usually come here to enjoy the holiday with friends while eating a lot of seafoods. You can buy fishes and ask the food stall around the beach to cook your fishes. Sounds good, save your money too.

What we were eat? Sea food? of course!!! We surfeit because of it. Crabs, squids, mollusks, and fishes that grilled with good taste. YUMMY!!! I wanna try this in other day with friends, homies or just my self. After ate together, took pictures, we went to Ganjuran temple (it's first time too). Just enjoyed the environment and respect with others.

NOW, Cobra's on Lombok or Bali, he's working there. We will meet in the top of our success. Nice quote COB!!! Good luck!!! God bless!!!